Sunday, August 15, 2010

this feeling...

It's a strange feeling. It makes you realize that you are made up of different parts - parts that will never fit together. It makes you aware that you are imperfect. That you are insignificant in this complex hierarchy of spiritual evolution. You have doubts, fears - ghosts that never leave you alone and desires - that that always remain unsatisfied. Whoever you are, whatever you do - you know your insecurities. You are demanding, your ego is fragile - you can't bear contradictions to your beliefs and at the same time you want to break free from everything.

And as you evolve through this feeling - you gradually start understanding this puzzle. You accept your insignificance. You learn to live with your ghosts, but you never feed them your energy. You put all efforts to fulfill your desires but neve
r let desires take control of your efforts. You learn to walk with your insecurities. You let your ego break.

You become comfortable with the reality that you are in fact, imperfect - and you just let this feeling guide you towards your destiny. Perhaps it's love - the evolution of a soul from what it is to what it should be - free.